I Never Learned How to Move On


Denial

The feelings of disbelief will echo in my brain,
the empty searching for you in bed next to me,
awaken from nightmares,
the ones about you no longer being here,
but then to find it to be true.

No, no, no.

The feelings of disbelief will echo in my brain,
as the past with you rushes through my veins,
I don’t want to break out of these chains
that I have wrapped myself in,
that caused me more pain than there already was.

No, no, no.

Awaken from nightmares,
the ones about you no longer being here,
but then to find it to be true.
I can no longer distinguish differences between
nightmares and reality.

No, no, no.
No, no, no.

You are still here
and so am I.
If I don’t admit that we have part,
in my brain,
we are still living together
and our love,
could never be bothered.

I don’t want to be awaken
from my self-made dream
that I wish to be the reality.

You are still here,
in my mind,
I can still your touch on my skin,
your scent is just a breeze away,

If I don’t face it,
If I don’t deal with it,
maybe I can still wake up
one morning
to find it was just a 
long nightmare.

No, no, no.
No, no, no.

The feelings of disbelief will echo in my brain,
the empty searching for you in bed next to me,
awaken from nightmares,
the ones about you no longer being here,
but then to find it to be true.



Bargain

I can’t negotiate love,
I can’t shout at the sky,
hoping fate would give us another chance in love.

I can’t negotiate love,
I can’t change myself for you,
hoping you’ll fall in love with a version of myself that
I don’t even love.

I can’t negotiate love,
I can’t force attraction or spark to grow,
hoping we could rekindle our love.

I can’t negotiate love,
but I swear to god I wish I could,
I wish I was still there,
and you were still here.

I can’t negotiate love,
but I swear to god I wish I could,
you taught me how to love,
and my world wouldn’t be the same
without you.

I can’t negotiate love,
but I swear to god I wish I could,
even when we part
and you wiped away my tears
you were still whispering
sweet nothings.

I can’t negotiate love,
I realize the end is inevitable,
but I thought we would be
an exception.

I can’t negotiate love,
I realize our end is inevitable,
but forever seemed just right
to be spent with you.

I realize the end is inevitable,
but I didn’t know our end would
come so soon.

By Wen Hsiao

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